I hope the title of this post deceived you. I have to admit, I’m a little frustrated. The majoraty of people who find this blog via Google or some other search engine, find it by searching for things related to the X3 Watch accountability software. But it’s not because they (and possibly you) are interested in installing it, or what it does, but rather how to get around it. They want to know how they can turn off the software without it notifying the accountability parters, or just simply how to look at porn without being caught.
This assumes that they already have it installed, and if they have it installed, it’s because they (at least on the outside) want some help in the right direction – to not look at porn. So for them, or you, it’s all a facade. You don’t really want to change. You just want people to think you do.
Consider these lyrics from As Cities Burn – a song called “Terrible! How Terrible For The Great City”.
am I a monster when I sink my teeth into her
when I don’t love her
no, I don’t love you
forgive me darling, but love has nothing to do with this
it has nothing to do with how I can’t stop
until I get what I want from you
this is what real men keep quiet
it doesn’t exist if you can hide it behind your teeth
and sleep at night next to your wife
who you love too much to tell her
you don’t love her at all
I just feel as empty as the lungs
of those waiting in the womb
do you feel as empty as the lungs of those waiting
to come into this world
where being beautiful means being used
how long will we blame the devils on our shoulders
and pose like angels on the outside
when all I am is a monster
I have some compassion for people who look at porn, but don’t want to. If you are trying to get around X3 Watch, that is just a symptom of a bigger problem. You can’t just try harder, you’ll fail. If not the first time, you will eventually. You need something bigger and better than yourself to help you if you intend to stop.
Leave some comments if you want to talk. I’ve been there.