Comments for Way Short of Heaven http://wayshortofheaven.com Just another WordPress site Fri, 04 May 2012 05:30:27 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.2 Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by Dante http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-79 Dante Fri, 04 May 2012 05:30:27 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-79 Thanks Steve for that link I needed that. I wrote previously under the name Anonymous, but only because I was ashamed of my sin and didn't want people to know it was me that struggled with this. It's crazy, I've stood up in front of my whole church and admitted my sin and how God has started to heal me of it yet I couldn't even say my name on a blog. Anyways, I have found a way around X3 Watch, one that doesn't alert my accountability partners, and just finished looking at porn. I felt like crap and remembered I had saved this in my favorites. Why is it that sometimes we don't remember we're not alone until it's already too late? I realize now that ever since Christ made me a Christian I have been looking at my sin incorrectly; as a nuisance rather than an enemy. I need to make war on this, not just passively push it into the corner, as long as I do that I will always struggle with this and continue to hurt those around me. One of the problems is I don't seem to have anyone in my life that's stern with me, everyone just seems to say "Oh it's alright, I do that too," or "Don't worry about it, you're forgiven." That's true but it doesn't help anyone to just tell them that there are no consequences, and I don't seem to have any other than the empty feeling I have after committing my sin. No one around me seems to give a crap, not my family or my church. Oh, they're all too willing to pray with me but not able to get down into the hole I'm in and help me out. I know God's already down here but I need some brothers down here too, helping me wrestle with my sin, not just cheering me on and leaving when I fail. Well thanks again Steve for allowing us to come here and pour out our hearts, God bless and fight hard against the flesh. "Do you mortify; do you make it your daily work; be always at it while you live; cease not a day from this work; be killing sin or it will be killing you." Thanks Steve for that link I needed that. I wrote previously under the name Anonymous, but only because I was ashamed of my sin and didn’t want people to know it was me that struggled with this. It’s crazy, I’ve stood up in front of my whole church and admitted my sin and how God has started to heal me of it yet I couldn’t even say my name on a blog.

Anyways, I have found a way around X3 Watch, one that doesn’t alert my accountability partners, and just finished looking at porn. I felt like crap and remembered I had saved this in my favorites. Why is it that sometimes we don’t remember we’re not alone until it’s already too late?

I realize now that ever since Christ made me a Christian I have been looking at my sin incorrectly; as a nuisance rather than an enemy. I need to make war on this, not just passively push it into the corner, as long as I do that I will always struggle with this and continue to hurt those around me.

One of the problems is I don’t seem to have anyone in my life that’s stern with me, everyone just seems to say “Oh it’s alright, I do that too,” or “Don’t worry about it, you’re forgiven.” That’s true but it doesn’t help anyone to just tell them that there are no consequences, and I don’t seem to have any other than the empty feeling I have after committing my sin. No one around me seems to give a crap, not my family or my church. Oh, they’re all too willing to pray with me but not able to get down into the hole I’m in and help me out. I know God’s already down here but I need some brothers down here too, helping me wrestle with my sin, not just cheering me on and leaving when I fail.

Well thanks again Steve for allowing us to come here and pour out our hearts, God bless and fight hard against the flesh. “Do you mortify; do you make it your daily work; be always at it while you live; cease not a day from this work; be killing sin or it will be killing you.”

]]> Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by The Addiction | YahwehsGentile http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-78 The Addiction | YahwehsGentile Thu, 26 Apr 2012 20:10:11 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-78 [...] there everyone. I found this blog. Thought it was cool. Here it is. How to turn off x3watch without getting caught. Share this:TwitterFacebookLinkedInEmailStumbleUponPinterestLike this:LikeBe the first to like this [...] [...] there everyone. I found this blog. Thought it was cool. Here it is. How to turn off x3watch without getting caught. Share this:TwitterFacebookLinkedInEmailStumbleUponPinterestLike this:LikeBe the first to like this [...]

]]> Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by Steve Meisner http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-77 Steve Meisner Mon, 09 Apr 2012 12:31:45 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-77 Hello, everybody! I just read this article about a deacon at <a href="marshillchurch.org" rel="nofollow">a church in seattle</a> about his porn addiction. Thankfully, by the grace of God, and with support from my wife and friends/<a href="http://www.mdcasheville.org/about-missio-dei/leadership" rel="nofollow">pastors</a>, porn hasn't been a a part of my life recently, and I have no plans to go back (but in saying that - one of the main points of this article is that it isn't my work, my avoidance of temptation, or my strong-armed resistance that keeps me from this sin, but it's Christ's victory that he secured on the cross and through his resurrection that I'm able to be free). Please take a few minutes and read through this - read the scriptures he has in there multiple times. They are God's life saving words to you! <a href="http://goo.gl/eaAxL" rel="nofollow">How Jesus Overcame My Porn Problem</a> Hello, everybody! I just read this article about a deacon at a church in seattle about his porn addiction. Thankfully, by the grace of God, and with support from my wife and friends/pastors, porn hasn’t been a a part of my life recently, and I have no plans to go back (but in saying that – one of the main points of this article is that it isn’t my work, my avoidance of temptation, or my strong-armed resistance that keeps me from this sin, but it’s Christ’s victory that he secured on the cross and through his resurrection that I’m able to be free). Please take a few minutes and read through this – read the scriptures he has in there multiple times. They are God’s life saving words to you!

How Jesus Overcame My Porn Problem

]]> Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by Tim http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-76 Tim Fri, 23 Mar 2012 08:58:21 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-76 Hi guys, First I would like to say that I have been recieving counselling for recovery from sexual addiction for a while now. And it is not easy and to be honest I get pissed off at times that I have had to go through so much shit and I still strugle with my addiction. Sometimes I wonder why the Fuck God allowed all this bullshit to happen in the first place!!!!???? Tim Hi guys,
First I would like to say that I have been recieving counselling for recovery from sexual addiction for a while now. And it is not easy and to be honest I get pissed off at times that I have had to go through so much shit and I still strugle with my addiction.

Sometimes I wonder why the Fuck God allowed all this bullshit to happen in the first place!!!!????

Tim

]]> Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by Missy http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-43 Missy Fri, 06 Jan 2012 07:42:25 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-43 Amy, It's been a few years since you posted that ... but my heart goes out to you. I now am in the same boat that you described. My husband has had this addiction since before we were married. I knew when we got married that he had looked and viewed pornography before, but I had no idea the extent of his addiction until a few years into our marriage. It has distanced me from him, and I must confess I am at a breaking point. I have cried, I have begged, I have prayed, I've threatened to leave, but it doesn't seem to do any good. he finally did download X3 and it has been working - for a while. He came to me earlier saying he is being tempted. And though I appreciate his honesty with me, he tells me he WANTS to stop this... (other than him downloading X3) I see no improvement in him. The moment he is faced with an opportunity he jumps on it without a moments hesitation. How am I, as a wife, suppose to help him through this? I hope you and your husband got through this and if so, how did you continue being that support to him? How do I not distance myself from him to keep from being hurt? When you said that the wife is in the kitchen while the husband is in a locked room just gripped me as I know first-hand the numbness, the sadness, and the anger it sends through a wife's body. I know the Bible says we are to forgive and go on... but how?? When it is a repeated thing? My husband told me instead of watching porn he is now turning to looking at images (and he is curious to see if X3 is going to pick it up) He is trying to find a loophole. Trying to find a way out. His tears no longer mean anything to me when he says he is trying to quit, because I don't see him trying ... not really. Which is what lead me to this site, I was looking to see if there really was a way for him to get around it, and what I am to expect. I'm sending a prayer up for you ... even though it's been a few years since your post. I hope your marriage is safe, sound, and protected now. God bless Amy,

It’s been a few years since you posted that … but my heart goes out to you. I now am in the same boat that you described. My husband has had this addiction since before we were married. I knew when we got married that he had looked and viewed pornography before, but I had no idea the extent of his addiction until a few years into our marriage. It has distanced me from him, and I must confess I am at a breaking point. I have cried, I have begged, I have prayed, I’ve threatened to leave, but it doesn’t seem to do any good. he finally did download X3 and it has been working – for a while. He came to me earlier saying he is being tempted. And though I appreciate his honesty with me, he tells me he WANTS to stop this… (other than him downloading X3) I see no improvement in him. The moment he is faced with an opportunity he jumps on it without a moments hesitation.
How am I, as a wife, suppose to help him through this? I hope you and your husband got through this and if so, how did you continue being that support to him? How do I not distance myself from him to keep from being hurt? When you said that the wife is in the kitchen while the husband is in a locked room just gripped me as I know first-hand the numbness, the sadness, and the anger it sends through a wife’s body. I know the Bible says we are to forgive and go on… but how?? When it is a repeated thing?
My husband told me instead of watching porn he is now turning to looking at images (and he is curious to see if X3 is going to pick it up) He is trying to find a loophole. Trying to find a way out. His tears no longer mean anything to me when he says he is trying to quit, because I don’t see him trying … not really. Which is what lead me to this site, I was looking to see if there really was a way for him to get around it, and what I am to expect.
I’m sending a prayer up for you … even though it’s been a few years since your post. I hope your marriage is safe, sound, and protected now.
God bless

]]> Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by paul ("oh wretched man that i am"/not was) http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-42 paul ("oh wretched man that i am"/not was) Wed, 16 Nov 2011 18:04:44 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-42 Bro, the following scriptures will only work by faith and if you get rid of your ps3 and Blackberry. James 1:5-8 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. 6 But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. 7 For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways. 1 John 5:14-15 14 Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. 15 And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him. 1 Thessalonians 4:3-5 3 For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality; 4 that each of you should know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor, 5 not in passion of lust, like the Gentiles who do not know God; John 16:23 “And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you. Mark 11:23-25 23 For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. 24 Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. Bro, the following scriptures will only work by faith and if you get rid of your ps3 and Blackberry.

James 1:5-8 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. 6 But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. 7 For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

1 John 5:14-15 14 Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. 15 And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him.

1 Thessalonians 4:3-5 3 For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality; 4 that each of you should know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor, 5 not in passion of lust, like the Gentiles who do not know God;

John 16:23 “And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you.

Mark 11:23-25 23 For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. 24 Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.

]]> Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by Weak College Student http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-41 Weak College Student Wed, 16 Nov 2011 08:28:58 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-41 I found this site because I was looking for a loophole on x3 watch so that my college and career pastor (accountability partner and friend) wouldn’t find out. This is something that has been apart of me for so long that I can't even remember. I've had x3 watch on my computer for about 2 months now. My vice is downloading and watching porn. Thanks to x3 I haven't fell victim on my computer, but it is year 2011. I'm in the process of getting an Iphone because x3 watch doesn't work on my Blackberry. Now my vice is downloading porn on my phone. But even worse is my ps3. I watch porn on there too. I've searched for accountability programs for gaming consoles to no avail. I guess you can say I'm a lot better than what I used to be..... buying masturbation sex toys and having almost a terabyte of porn at a time. But I feel like I've done well, and go without porn for weeks at a time. Until I see a sex scene on TV, or nudity on a movie, etc. This fire erupts inside me and I fall so hard that the condemnation throws me into a depression. This bondage has wired itself so deep into me, that whenever I get depressed, down, frustrated, I turn to it for relief. As if its some kind of pill or drug. I'm not where I used to be, but I haven't stopped so I'm not where I want to be. PORN FREE. Technology, internet, my Smartphone, and my ps3 have all become my enemies. Sheer will can NOT contain this demon. I pray and pray, but I can't seem to stop myself. I used to tell myself it was normal and I'll stop when I get a girlfriend, but it doesn't. I truly know I have an addiction. GOD has moved in my life radically in the last 3 months that I have become a totally different person. GOD came in wrecked and ruined me thru and thru. But porn is....something I have to give to GOD....and as much as I say I want to.....I can't say all of me wants too. Its like giving my identity away, or a crutch for a bad leg. As someone who has been called into ministry, this is something I have to be purified of. I'm beginning to feel unworthy and out of place even at church. I can't smile and go around as if life is fine and I'm "sin free", because I'm not. I know this is long, but I have to tell someone. I've decided while typing this.....that I'm going email this to my accountability partner. I'm tired of disappointing GOD and the people who believe in me. Please pray for me. I'm sorry if I've been rambling, but it took a lot for to pour this out. Keep me in your prayers. Thanks. I found this site because I was looking for a loophole on x3 watch so that my college and career pastor (accountability partner and friend) wouldn’t find out. This is something that has been apart of me for so long that I can’t even remember. I’ve had x3 watch on my computer for about 2 months now. My vice is downloading and watching porn. Thanks to x3 I haven’t fell victim on my computer, but it is year 2011. I’m in the process of getting an Iphone because x3 watch doesn’t work on my Blackberry. Now my vice is downloading porn on my phone. But even worse is my ps3. I watch porn on there too. I’ve searched for accountability programs for gaming consoles to no avail. I guess you can say I’m a lot better than what I used to be….. buying masturbation sex toys and having almost a terabyte of porn at a time. But I feel like I’ve done well, and go without porn for weeks at a time. Until I see a sex scene on TV, or nudity on a movie, etc. This fire erupts inside me and I fall so hard that the condemnation throws me into a depression. This bondage has wired itself so deep into me, that whenever I get depressed, down, frustrated, I turn to it for relief. As if its some kind of pill or drug. I’m not where I used to be, but I haven’t stopped so I’m not where I want to be. PORN FREE. Technology, internet, my Smartphone, and my ps3 have all become my enemies. Sheer will can NOT contain this demon. I pray and pray, but I can’t seem to stop myself. I used to tell myself it was normal and I’ll stop when I get a girlfriend, but it doesn’t. I truly know I have an addiction. GOD has moved in my life radically in the last 3 months that I have become a totally different person. GOD came in wrecked and ruined me thru and thru. But porn is….something I have to give to GOD….and as much as I say I want to…..I can’t say all of me wants too. Its like giving my identity away, or a crutch for a bad leg. As someone who has been called into ministry, this is something I have to be purified of. I’m beginning to feel unworthy and out of place even at church. I can’t smile and go around as if life is fine and I’m “sin free”, because I’m not. I know this is long, but I have to tell someone. I’ve decided while typing this…..that I’m going email this to my accountability partner. I’m tired of disappointing GOD and the people who believe in me. Please pray for me. I’m sorry if I’ve been rambling, but it took a lot for to pour this out. Keep me in your prayers. Thanks.

]]> Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by paul ("oh wretched man that i am"/not was) http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-40 paul ("oh wretched man that i am"/not was) Mon, 14 Nov 2011 08:07:31 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-40 i have 4 computers hooked up to x3watch. One of those is my wife's. "Pornication" is easier to be "beset" by than actual physical contact. i believe the bible considers this type of sin "vain imagination" bcz no way would the women i'm having sex with in my mind consent to doing "it" with me. i liken the temptation of Pornication to having naked subjects of my lust ready, willing and waiting for me behind the locked door of a spare bedroom in the house i share with my wife/family, and only i have the key. As soon as the wife or family has left the house, how could i not indulge the naked women in the other room??? No man can contend with that. Not even Joseph who ran from Potiphar's wife. He did not have to live with her in the same house. Not even David a man after God's own heart with Bathsheba. We have to live with the temptation if we own a computer or a smart phone. Without x3 i would fail, fail, fail at this attempt to actually "love God". So, x3watch is one of the necessary tools we must utilize in fighting this good fight. But we also must remember, we are fighting a fixed fight won by the Lord 2000 years ago. "All things are lawful for me, but not all things edify" bcz "i am not under law but under grace" therefore, "sin will not have dominion over me" in other words, it can't kill me anymore for many reasons, one of which is; sin can't kill what's already dead by identification with Christ death. We are to reckon the old man dead" bcz God does. "So it is no longer i who sins but sin that dwelleth in me" "and though the body is dead bcz of sin, the Spirit is alive bcz of Christ" so "There is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ" (by faith not works/"having begun in the Spirit are you now going to be perfected in the flesh" "be wary if ye thinks ye stands lest ye falls" "Only Christ is able to keep us from falling/after He stands us up" "Our new lives, which are handed to us by God as a prize" are hidden in Christ seated at the right hand of our heavenly Father in His throne room of GRACE! In Jesus no darkness can reside. So when the Father looks to the right and sees us in Christ, He sees His perfect children in Jesus, the first born of many brethren. The old nature may continue to fall short if we have not "learned how to possess our own vessel" YET! "Behold the lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world" "as far as the east is from the west, so far have i removed your sin from you" "I will remember your sin no more" "blessed is the man who's sin the Lord does not take into account" (input) "not having our own righteousness but the righteousness of God through FAITH in Christ" etc, etc, etc...And when we begin the grasp (even a little bit/mustard seed faith) grasp the AMAZING GRACE in which we STAND! the magnitude of the awesomeness of God's gracious unmerited love for us breaks the binds that tie. Little by little, faith to faith, glory to glory. The more i focus on my sin, the more i sin. When i learned how to ride a bike, the more i focused on the fire hydrant, the more i crashed into it. Let go and let God. No matter what, i simply can not mess up the salvation that has been given to me. And as i start to understand the awesomeness of it all, the i understand Paul when he said, "shall i go on sinning so that grace my abound??? HEAVEN FORBID!!! bro's, i'm just now, (after 33 years of stumbling after my Lord/who will never leave me or forsake me) just now starting to understand this amazing grace, and like some miraculous chemical reaction from on high, i am receiving the "power to become a son of God" and am "working out what the Lord has worked in" grace, paul PS. thanks for letting me share... i have 4 computers hooked up to x3watch. One of those is my wife’s. “Pornication” is easier to be “beset” by than actual physical contact. i believe the bible considers this type of sin “vain imagination” bcz no way would the women i’m having sex with in my mind consent to doing “it” with me. i liken the temptation of Pornication to having naked subjects of my lust ready, willing and waiting for me behind the locked door of a spare bedroom in the house i share with my wife/family, and only i have the key. As soon as the wife or family has left the house, how could i not indulge the naked women in the other room??? No man can contend with that. Not even Joseph who ran from Potiphar’s wife. He did not have to live with her in the same house. Not even David a man after God’s own heart with Bathsheba. We have to live with the temptation if we own a computer or a smart phone. Without x3 i would fail, fail, fail at this attempt to actually “love God”. So, x3watch is one of the necessary tools we must utilize in fighting this good fight. But we also must remember, we are fighting a fixed fight won by the Lord 2000 years ago. “All things are lawful for me, but not all things edify” bcz “i am not under law but under grace” therefore, “sin will not have dominion over me” in other words, it can’t kill me anymore for many reasons, one of which is; sin can’t kill what’s already dead by identification with Christ death. We are to reckon the old man dead” bcz God does. “So it is no longer i who sins but sin that dwelleth in me” “and though the body is dead bcz of sin, the Spirit is alive bcz of Christ” so “There is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ” (by faith not works/”having begun in the Spirit are you now going to be perfected in the flesh” “be wary if ye thinks ye stands lest ye falls” “Only Christ is able to keep us from falling/after He stands us up” “Our new lives, which are handed to us by God as a prize” are hidden in Christ seated at the right hand of our heavenly Father in His throne room of GRACE! In Jesus no darkness can reside. So when the Father looks to the right and sees us in Christ, He sees His perfect children in Jesus, the first born of many brethren. The old nature may continue to fall short if we have not “learned how to possess our own vessel” YET! “Behold the lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world” “as far as the east is from the west, so far have i removed your sin from you” “I will remember your sin no more” “blessed is the man who’s sin the Lord does not take into account” (input) “not having our own righteousness but the righteousness of God through FAITH in Christ” etc, etc, etc…And when we begin the grasp (even a little bit/mustard seed faith) grasp the AMAZING GRACE in which we STAND! the magnitude of the awesomeness of God’s gracious unmerited love for us breaks the binds that tie. Little by little, faith to faith, glory to glory. The more i focus on my sin, the more i sin. When i learned how to ride a bike, the more i focused on the fire hydrant, the more i crashed into it. Let go and let God. No matter what, i simply can not mess up the salvation that has been given to me. And as i start to understand the awesomeness of it all, the i understand Paul when he said, “shall i go on sinning so that grace my abound??? HEAVEN FORBID!!! bro’s, i’m just now, (after 33 years of stumbling after my Lord/who will never leave me or forsake me) just now starting to understand this amazing grace, and like some miraculous chemical reaction from on high, i am receiving the “power to become a son of God” and am “working out what the Lord has worked in”

grace, paul

PS. thanks for letting me share…

]]> Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by Anonymous http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-39 Anonymous Sun, 30 Oct 2011 04:28:26 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-39 Thank you brothers and sister in Christ. If anyone reads this please pray for me, a college student. I know God has made me holy and blameless before Him but I just don't know what to do right now. This beast in my mind just won't go away no matter what I do. I am at a point where I really really care about getting this fixed but I also don't care at all. I feel that "religion" has its hold on me; I know all the steps I need to take but I'm just not sure that in my heart I'm truly ready to give this thing up. Accountability doesn't work because everyone I've ever asked to hold me accountable seems to give up on me because I'll have a good streak, but then I'll find a loophole in the blocker or just turn to masturbation instead. I probably won't remember this webiste's title and don't necissarily know if anything you say can really help me. However, I do know that God will help me if I would only let Him, so please if you could just pray for a fellow brother who is really confused right now. I love you all, and thanks again for those who posted before me. Thank you brothers and sister in Christ. If anyone reads this please pray for me, a college student. I know God has made me holy and blameless before Him but I just don’t know what to do right now. This beast in my mind just won’t go away no matter what I do. I am at a point where I really really care about getting this fixed but I also don’t care at all. I feel that “religion” has its hold on me; I know all the steps I need to take but I’m just not sure that in my heart I’m truly ready to give this thing up. Accountability doesn’t work because everyone I’ve ever asked to hold me accountable seems to give up on me because I’ll have a good streak, but then I’ll find a loophole in the blocker or just turn to masturbation instead. I probably won’t remember this webiste’s title and don’t necissarily know if anything you say can really help me. However, I do know that God will help me if I would only let Him, so please if you could just pray for a fellow brother who is really confused right now. I love you all, and thanks again for those who posted before me.

]]> Comment on How to turn off X3 Watch by Jose http://wayshortofheaven.com/2008/09/how-to-turn-off-x3-watch/#comment-38 Jose Sun, 09 Oct 2011 07:52:09 +0000 http://www.stevemeisner.us/wordpress/?p=96#comment-38 I am writing while in "private mode" of my browser. That tells you how close I was to turning to pornography tonight. BUT GOD...He is gracious, He is sovereign. Praise Him for brothers & sisters who sharpen us as iron sharpens iron. Please read Pro 5-8. Those who are His and recognize his voice are children of the Almighty, the source of wisdom and life! By His grace, we will keep His words. "My son, keep my words...." I am writing while in “private mode” of my browser. That tells you how close I was to turning to pornography tonight. BUT GOD…He is gracious, He is sovereign. Praise Him for brothers & sisters who sharpen us as iron sharpens iron. Please read Pro 5-8. Those who are His and recognize his voice are children of the Almighty, the source of wisdom and life! By His grace, we will keep His words. “My son, keep my words….”

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